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By Rahena Bint Ala of NDT Sister’s.
Circles held on Saturdays 12pm Rythm Centre Plaistow, E13
Many times we find ourselves in a constant battle to achieve our desires but also to achieve pleasure from our Lord the Almighty Allah. We may find ourselves, in our weakest moments, off guard and open to the attacks of the shayateen. When we want what we desire we find ourselves planning and finding ways to go around the potential sin in order to make it “halal”. This is mere waswasa that destroys our good will and intention and seeks to nullify the good we try to do, this waswasa enables us to justify the haraam thus making us psychologically able to conceal the shame and hatred of the supposed act. When we find ourselves doing this and committing the sin, we have actually desensitize ourselves to the guilt that should/usually follows, to the point that we are no longer remorseful thus creating a black stain on our hearts.
In the hadith of Jibreel, when he came to the Prophet SAW and asked him about Islam, Eeman and Ihsan, the Prophet SAW said about Eeman “Eeman is to believe in Allah, His Angels, His Books, His Messengers, the Final Day and the Divine Decree, the good and the bad thereof”
As travelers in this mere temporary dunya we may find ourselves in one of the two situations, either something good happens and where we should thank Allah or something bad happens in which we should have patience.
The Messenger of Allah SAW said “Strange is the affair of the Mu’min, verily all his affairs are good for him. If something pleasing befalls him he thanks Allah and it becomes better for him. And if something harmful befalls him he is patient and it becomes better for him. And this is only for the Mu’min”
In general Scholars have divided patience into three distinct categories:
1. Patience to obey Allah and what He has ordered; being patient during the deed, not forgetting Allah and to make the deed as good and as complete as possible
2. Patience to refrain from disobedience- “The world is the believers prison and the non believers paradise”- patience is required after repentance in order to distant yourselves from Shaytaan therefore each new temptation must be resisted.
3. Patience in the face of problems or afflictions- this includes everything that happens against ones will.
Such trials are from Allah and no matter how bad they may seem they are in reality mere opportunities for the person because Allah does not impose hardship on the believe except that He wants to purify them so that they may be grateful to Allah. “Verily, we have created mankind into hardship” 90:4
In conclusion, no matter what kind of jihad you are facing, remember to seek patience as well as being grateful to Allah. You may not get what you desired in the dunya, but we are mere humans how do we know what we want is good for us? It could be that there is something better for us in the akhira inshaAllah.
“And keep yourself patient with those who call upon their Lord morning and evening, seeking His Acceptance” 18:28
Today as i was preparing to pray, I glimpsed in the mirror as I was putting on my hijab. In that instance I saw a transformation in the image of the reflection before me. The girl in the mirror changed from one who looked chaotic, curls everywhere, ready to party, one that you could easily imagine committing sins, She changed in to a woman who radiated elegance and serenity, who looked respectful, pious, calm, secure. Sorted.
This shocked me. It made me think. How does the world perceive me? Are people’s perceptions of me and my own understanding of myself so far removed? How does the hijab effect me? How does the way that others treat me effect me?
I think of myself differently in the house from outside the house, that much is true. Inside the house I think of myself as that confused, struggling girl. My thoughts are chaotic and all consuming. My emotions run riot within my head. My heart desires what it shouldn’t.
Outside the house I am calm, I am well mannered, I am a peace maker, I try to enjoin others to good. People respect me and are kind to me, and tell me I inspire them. Outsiders could never imagine me thinking the thoughts that flutter within my mind.
But what would they think if they saw the girl in the mirror? Am I a hypocrite? Or am I covering the sins Allah has covered for me?
If you draw closer to Me by a forearm’s length, I will draw closer to you by an arm’s length. And if you come to Me walking, I will come to you running [Hadith Qudsi]
Maybe hijab is part of this. When you wear it it changes peoples perceptions of you, and therefore your perceptions of yourself. It inspires you to live up to its ideals, to behave while wearing it. It inspires you to be a better person. Hijab becomes part of your identity, so that the woman wearing the hijab, the elegant one, with nour radiating from her face, that is who you become. InshaAllah
It seems that my hijab creates that barrier between me and haram, makes it hard for me to commit haram alhamdulillah, makes me think twice, and others think twice before inviting me to haram.
And the chaotic girl? She is still there, just beneath the surface, she may always be there. She is a part of me that I cannot deny but need to learn to live with. Learn to be at peace with. She is my history, my inclinations, my learnt behaviours in defining times of my life. She is the embodiment of my nafs. Maybe it was the daydreams that wouldn’t get out of my head, or the glint in her eye at the moment I looked in to the mirror that made me see her. She is my constant companion.
She is my test.
‘The best of you are those of you who fall into trials and then repent.”
Ya Allah, make me of those who sincerely repent.